Becky Lynch Goes Into Detail About Past Bout With Depression

Ahead of her showdown against Charlotte Flair with WrestleMania 35 implications at this Sunday’s WWE Fastlane 2019 pay-per-view, Becky Lynch spoke with Pro Wrestling Illustrated for a promotional interview.

During her discussion with PWI’s Senior Writer Dan Murphy, “The Man” spoke at length about her past bout with depression. The time period was 2006, the circumstances were a bad head injury that led to the depression and only three appearances in six years inside the squared circle.

“It felt like death to me,” said Lynch, who was working as Rebecca Knox during the time period. “I was Rebecca [Knox], the wrestler, and then I wasn’t the wrestler, so who the hell was Rebecca? It was my whole goal that I wanted to change the landscape of women, to just go out there and just wrestle and make people care.”

Lynch continued, “Then, all of a sudden, I was just lost with no goals, no ambition. I felt like I let everybody down. And I was so ashamed. I just remember pure shame, of not being able to know what I was going to do with myself, not being able to own up to the fact that I wasn’t doing it, or that I was confused about it.”

From there, Lynch spoke about what she was writing in her personal journal at this time and how eventually, she signed a developmental deal with WWE.

“I just thought that the door closed for me for life,” said Lynch. “This fear of success, but fear of failure. Fear of … I don’t know … of the future, really. And I went into a depression. But I would always write in my journal that I felt like I had unfinished business. That I should be in WWE, but I didn’t know how to get back there. I felt like I burned these bridges, but this is what I’m meant to do and how am I going to do it? It was a horrible, harrowing feeling, to not know how to get back there. Luckily, some twist of fate or divine intervention – I don’t know what you want to call it – just brought me back to what I feel is my calling, my destiny, if you believe in those kinds of things. And here we are.”

At WWE Fastlane 2019 this Sunday, if “The Lass Kicker” manages to defeat Charlotte Flair, the stipulation of the match calls for her to be added to the RAW Women’s Championship match featuring Ronda Rousey and Charlotte at WrestleMania 35, a match that has been rumored to possibly become the first-ever women’s match to headline a WrestleMania event.

“It was my goal to main-event WrestleMania,” said ‘The Man.’ “That’s what I set out to do, that’s what I said I was going to do when I moved over here and got signed to NXT. I said I was going to main-event WrestleMania. I didn’t know I was going to be the first woman to do it, but it was my intention. And I feel like, of course, the two chosen ones were going to be chosen to be put in the main event of WrestleMania. But I’ve been the one that’s made it interesting.”

For more from Becky Lynch’s interview with Dan Murphy, visit PWI-Online.com.